Good morning beautiful Topsy. I felt very low yesterday afternoon, evening, and night little girl, eating a bowl of noodles did not cheer me up, even though I was very hungry. There was some terrible noises coming from over the back there last night, I do not know what it could have been, but the sounds were like a poor animal being tortured. After I had been down there for the last time last night, and had then had to get out of somethings way, I sat here for a while, then got into bed earlier than usual. I was very tired, and I think that I had a good sleep, but I was awake early again, just a few minutes before I was on that terrible Tuesday morning ninety-five days ago. When I got down there to the kitchen, I opened the garden doors, and George came running in, there was no sign of Thomas anywhere. George had her usual three packets of food, went back out, and I got back up here out of the way. After I had given my poor Mum her coffee, I told her that I would give her a yogurt soon. Of course, something has put a stop to that, each day it does something little girl, just as that deranged, evil old ogre would do… even after yesterday, it still wants to cause an argument, and I do not think that I can take much more of it. I was going to go out for a nice long walk again, but it was absolutely pouring down this morning, and I was soaked enough yesterday, so I will probably go tomorrow. It is Mother’s Day tomorrow little girl, and something will try to ruin that, as it has done the last three. I cannot bear being in the house with the argumentative, bucktoothed odd thing little girl. A fully-grown odd thing, caught blatantly lying, and it is not even bothered, just as that evil old ogre was not… I would feel so ashamed, that I would not be able to show my face. That is the difference between the evil old ogre that thing, and dopey me little girl, as I have a conscience. There are some beautiful sounds coming from out there in the gardens little girl, and of course, that blasted sun has now come out. I will probably be late on here again tomorrow little girl, I am sorry about that, but I have to get out of here. I love you Topsy, I love you so much little girl, and I miss you, I miss you so much too you beautiful, brave little girl. XxX