Good morning beautiful Topsy. Yesterday was about the same as usual, but I felt a lot lower than I usually do, and that got even worse when I went downstairs, as the usual thing was waiting for me to get out of its way. Poor Percy had already been shoved out, as he had made a mess in the kitchen, though he must have asked to go out, I was surprised that it was not left for me to clean up. I got out the way as quickly as I could, and by the late afternoon, I was feeling very hungry when I went down there. I had to get straight back up here though, as something was waiting for me to get out of their way so they could go to the chip shop for more food to stuff down itself. When I went down there for last evening, I was even hungrier, but seeing as something was waiting to come down the hallway, I had to make do with a few pieces of coffee cake… I suppose I was lucky to have got that. I was eating some biscuits not long ago, when Molly decided to be sick on the bed, I just got her to the door on time. The smell was awful, you would think that I would be used to the stenches the happen in this house, just before I go down there for food, or while I am eating, but I cannot get used to them, it still turns my stomach. When I went down there last night to get out the way with Molly, I had to be quick then as well, I wanted to get in bed early, but must have forgotten, as my head hit the pillows later than usual. I went to sleep quickly, but was soon awake again, and had another awful night. I was awake this morning an hour before I used to get up at, and did not feel very happy at all. I fed poor Percy and George, though George ate most of it all, but I let her out with ham, gave poor Percy his usual, then got out the way. I had to put poor Percy out when I went back down there to make the coffee, and the huge breakfasts are just being cooked. He could have stayed in for two more hours, and someone else could have let him out, but that is too much trouble. I am dreading what the fridge will look like when I am allowed down there just before midday, I only tidied it the other week, but it will be deliberately messed up. Stuff wrapped in blasted tin foil, just shoved on a shelf and forgotten about, and egg boxes just thrown on the floor because someone is too lazy to open the garden doors and take them to the bin. Molly ran down there when I came up here for something, and I had to get out the way as soon as I took my poor Mum her coffee. I was low earlier little girl, and I feel even lower now, I do not think that anything could cheer me up right now. I love you Topsy, and I miss you too little girl. XxX