Good morning beautiful Topsy. When I got down to the kitchen just before midday yesterday, I was able to make my poor Mum and myself a mug of coffee, but not before Molly's tray had had a good thorough scrubbing. Having to get back up here as soon as I go downstairs has made it impossible for me to clean it properly, I do not want the bag splitting with all the grit in it as I am going downstairs, so cleaning it downstairs is the best thing to do. Something like that has happened before, so that is why I always clean Charlie's and Molly's trays downstairs… it is not much to ask, at least I do not leave it for someone else to do, as the old ogre did with poor Tiddles. Yesterday afternoon and evening was absolutely terrible little girl, I did not think that I could feel anymore depressed, and then something was done that did it. When I went down to the kitchen to chop up some vegetables, there was a big pile of stuff to go out there to the bins. I said that I would do it this morning, but ohh no, I was told that it had to go out then, and when I opened the garden doors, poor Percy and poor Jenny came running in. I could not give them anything to eat, as I had a load of stuff that needed to go out there to the bins, and when I had down all that, I was expected to get out of the way. I did not though, I took as long as I could to chop the vegetables for my egg rolls, and then got back up here feeling as depressed as usual. It was to much to think that I would have a good nights sleep again, I had an awful night, I kept waking up, and I was awake very, very early again this morning. It was far to cold to get out of bed and sit in this chair, so I stayed in bed for as long as I could, hoping that I would go back to sleep, but of course I did not. When I got out of bed, Molly was waiting to greet me, so that made me feel better, and then I staggered off down to the kitchen with my pots. It was far to dark and early to feed the cats, and there was yet more stuff for dopey daft odd me to take out there to the bins, so I got back up here to Molly until it started to get light. I went back down to the kitchen as it started to get light, and when I had finally got the garden doors open, Percy and Jenny came running in… George was also out there, but I made her wait until I came back in, as she is always starting fights with Percy and Jenny. When I got back into the kitchen, I made sure that they all had a good feed, and when they had finished, I had to put them back out there… I did not want to, but I had to. After that, I washed up, and got back up here out of the way, after all, I was in the way yesterday morning, and did not want to get mumbled and muttered at again. For some reason, I felt a bit happier this morning, but thought it would not last, but it did. When I went back down to make some coffee, I felt happier, and then Molly made me laugh when she started galloping around the kitchen. I still feel good now, but someone will make a snide remark, or do something to make me feel useless when I go back down to the kitchen just before midday. We do love you Topsy, we love you so much little girl, and we do miss you, we miss you so much you beautiful brave little girl. XXXXX