Good morning beautiful TopTops. I could not visit my poor Mum yesterday little girl, as I was so exhausted, and was the first break where I had not been out of the house for forty-two days. Everything would have been all right if that rotten stinking sun had not started being so hot, just nineteen days ago, I walked 7,000 steps in one hour, and I almost did the same on two previous days. I did about 1,500 steps all day yesterday, and I still fell asleep in this chair several times last evening and night. There was not much noise from that deranged swamp-things and that barbaric, big-mouthed lunatic yesterday, but when I went down there one last time last night, I went into the downstairs bathroom to wash my hands, and turned the light on. As soon as it was on, that squawking lunatic started, and I had to turn it off again… I forgot to mention that it was screaming, shrieking, squawking, screeching, and shouting as it was thundering and lightning, and huge hailstones fell the other day. It would be nice if that happened again, especially this afternoon, evening, and night, as I have a funny feeling that they are going to have another one of their family orgy party things. The last time I thought that this was going to happen, it was odd teapot face that had a party, with herds of big-mouthed, drunken lunatics gathered out there in the lane, but I am sure that it will be those snavelling, barbaric tosspots that have the party this time. I just hope that I am proved wrong little girl, but I doubt it very much. I do not think that I will be able to see my poor Mum until Monday, and I feel so bad, as my poor Mum and little sister visited me every day after I had that brain injury. My poor Mum told the doctors that I would have to move back here when I came out of hospital, as I needed looking after, which did not please that evil old ogre and something else at all. The evil old ogre was probably waiting to get his hands on my life insurance, and something else was hoping that I would die, as it always told me that it wished I was dead. I was supposed to relax downstairs, but after just one day, the evil old ogre decided to have some time off of work as well, so I had to come up to my old cramped room, as neither of them wanted me down there. I cannot remember if you scratched at my door, but you probably did, JoJo, Charlie, and Molly did, but I cannot remember if Whiskey did, Katie did not, she did not like my poor Mum or me. You stayed curled up on my lap every day until I felt better, then you went back downstairs, thank you TopTops. Something threw a tantrum the other day, my little sister thought that it was going to start jumping up and down and start slapping its legs, just as that evil old ogre used to do when he could not get his own way. He did it when he wanted the roast beef that I had bought myself for Sunday dinner, he had got his own way before, but did not that time, so he threw a tantrum, and told me that he hoped that I choked on it. I did, as I had not eaten for three days, and he said that it would teach me to be greedy. Something was supposed to go shopping two days ago, but because of the tantrum, it did not, so it has gone trundling out this morning. It will not be going to visit our poor Mum until halfway through this afternoon, and will most probably say that it has visited Murray every day this week, just to make me feel even guiltier than I already feel. I am so tired though little girl, I thought that I would lay in until at least the time I was laying in when I was ill two months ago, but no, I was awake early again this morning. It was later than I have been getting up, but that is not the point, I walked seventy miles in six days going to and from visiting my poor Mum, anyone else would still be in bed snoring away, but not dopey me, ohhh no. I have a bottle of Irish Mist downstairs, I might have a few drops of that before I get into bed this evening, if that does not help, I do not know what I will do. I love you TopTops, I do love you little girl, and I do miss you, I miss you so much you beautiful, brave, clever little girl. XxX