Beautiful TopTops. Sorry I am late again little girl, but I went for another long walk, but even though I went exactly the same way as I did yesterday and the day before, I walked less miles… which is daft. I had to keep taking plastics out to the bin yesterday evening and night, each time I went out there, Thomas ran up, but would not come in for food. I was very tired last night little girl, and I can just about remember getting into bed, and I think that I had a good night. I woke up ten minutes before I did on that terrible Tuesday morning ninety-eight days ago, and got up straight away. When I got down there to the kitchen, I opened the garden doors, George ran in, and I went to get the catfood from the hallway window. I had my first ‘I cannot believe it’ of the day, as a thieving, filthy, scrounging mouse had been at a packet. I fed George and Thomas, then put all of the catfood into a storage box… and bought one for Tiddles chicken soups while I was out. As I was ploughing along, I realised that I had forgotten to take my medication, but it was pointless going back, as I would have only caused am argument, so I carried on. I regretted doing that, as I felt absolutely awful on the way back, and had to keep stopping, something I only usually do when I am staggering back from town with over £100 in shopping. All I was carrying was a bag with four sandwiches in, and the storage box for Tiddles chicken soup. I felt so awful, I was glad to get back here, where of course, something was waiting for me to get out of the way. I did not care, I got Tiddles food, put them all in the box, then for the first time in who-knows-how-long, split a cheese and onion sandwich with my little sister. I then had a good swilling of chocolate milkshake, then got up here out of the way. I have taken my medication, and I am slowly starting to feel better, and I have put some in my backpack in case it happens again. I will be late again tomorrow little girl, but I have to keep up with this walking, and once I get through the pain, it will be a doddle… six years ago, I was doing much more steps, one day I did more than 70,000, but I did that over seventeen hours. I love you so much Topsy, I do love you little girl, and I do miss you, I miss you so much you beautiful, brave little girl. XxX