3rd October 2022

Good morning beautiful Topsy. It stayed quiet all day yesterday little girl, no screaming lunatics, no screaming kids from over the back, and no hammering and banging from that house over the back that is never finished. My stomach was the only thing making a row, and while I had to make do with a few slices of carrot cake for my dinner last evening, something had managed to shovel down nearly two dinners earlier… and I still had to get out the way. That was on top of huge fried breakfasts, and who knows what else to take with tablets. After I had got out of the way with Molly last night, I got in bed, was soon asleep, was then woken up at the usual time, and had an awful night again. This morning, I woke up two hours before I used to get up at, and turned over for more sleep… but after what felt like just a few minutes, it was half an hour before I used to get up at. I could not believe it, and groaned out loudly, but I got up. When I opened the garden doors, there was no sign of poor Percy or George, and as I opened the big gate, he was meowing to come in, then George appeared. I gave them their food, let George out with ham when she had finished, gave poor Percy his usual, then got back up here out the way. When I went back down there to make the coffee, poor Percy came up behind me while I was at the fridge, and I accidentally trod on him, snd he cried out loudly… I did not mean to, not like others. I apologised to poor Percy, but he just wanted to go out, so I let him… at least he had almost cleared his plate. After I had washed my hands, I looked out there for Percy, but could not see him, and seeing as something was waiting for me to get out of its way, back up here I had to get. Seeing as lots of gobbling and shovelling would be going on in the kitchen just after I got up here, I did not dare go back down there, but I will have a look at midday. A few hours of something not being here might make me feel a bit better, but I doubt it, as today is a day where I feel even more lower than I usually do. I love you so much Topsy, snd I miss you so much too little girl. XxX