Good morning beautiful Topsy. The day before yesterday was kind of nice little girl, but that was because something was not here making my life a bigger misery than it already is. It soon came crashing through the big scary old door though, expecting another great big feed. I did not feel well, and was not downstairs when it came barging into the room that it expected me to be… I still had to get out of the way quickly when I went down there. By the time that I went back down there to the kitchen in the evening, I was absolutely starving… I was starving because of the medication that I take, and I got some noodles ready before seeing to Molly. As the noodles were getting ready, I got Molly’s tray, and went to put it in the downstairs bathroom, as I do with Charlie’s tray on an evening… and that is when I found out that someone had been there just before I got down there. It was a favourite trick of the evil old ogre, it would make me violently sick, and this time was the same… of course, I could not eat my noodles, so that was two evenings of choking, one of being sick, and I felt horrible. I cannot remember what kind of night I had, but I was awake an hour before the new time that I have been getting up, and just lay there for a while. When I did get up, I staggered down there to the kitchen, and found the usual stuff had been dumped there. After I had taken it all out, I fed Percy and George, and when George had finished, I let her out with a great big lump of ham, gave Percy his usual, then got back up here out the way. When I went back down to make my poor Mum her coffee, something was waiting for me to get out of the way, but I gave Percy another pack of food before I left to go into town to get another great big pile of shopping. I was hoping to just bring back catfood and a few things for myself. Of course, that was not going to happen… I had already been told to bring back a great big bag of chips, one of those that something can gobble down the most of, and still look around for more, but now I had to get two. I also had to get pigging mushrooms, and blasted bacon and sausages for a great big shovelling Sunday morning feed, on top of another great big pile of stuff. I worked out when I got back that I have spent almost £6,000 on shopping this year. All I have had have been either mushroom soup, noodles, or egg salad rolls… and I think I only had egg salad rolls about three times, and the last time I tried them, the same bathroom trick was played on me. The money that I have spent does not include the almost £500 a month that my poor Mum hands over to something to get piles of chickens, loads of bacon, dozens of eggs, and piles of blasted sausages, mushrooms, and more, I could not even buy any catfood, as I would not have been able to carry it back here with what I had already had to buy… I will be getting it next week though. I had to get out of the way as soon as I had put everything away, but was able to get some coffee and biscuits when I went back down there to the kitchen just before midday. I stayed up here all afternoon, as I cannot go down there to talk with my poor Mum and little sister anymore. Something makes me feel so uncomfortable and unwanted, I just have to come back up here… which is yet another trick that a certain evil old ogre used to pull. I had a big bowl of noodles last evening, but could not eat everything, though I felt full and happy for the first time in ages. I had a good night as well, and was awake twenty minutes before I used to get up. I fed poor Percy and George, let George out with ham, and gave Percy his usual. When I went down to make the coffee, something was waiting for me to get out of the way, but I managed to give poor Percy another packet of food, and get myself a few biscuits… it had been over twelve hours since my noodles. I love you Topsy, I love you so much little girl, and I miss you, I miss you so much you beautiful brave little girl. XXXXX