Good morning beautiful Topsy. When I got down there to the kitchen the day before yesterday, poor Percy had been shoved out, so plenty of gobbling’s could be done sat down on Charlie’s chair by the scary old washing machine… Percy likes getting there, but he is not allowed around shovelling time. At least I did not have to get out the way that time, but of course, I did have to in the late afternoon, as something was waiting for yet another great feed. I was so fed up with having mushroom soup on an evening, that I just could not be bothered having it again, and came back up here as quickly as I could. Yet again, I had to get out the way when I went down there in the evening, I had just enough time to get some blue cheese before I had to get back up here. The same thing happened when I went down there for Molly, so I took her back down there an hour later, just to hear some wild trumpeting. I got into bed when I got up here with Molly, but I had another uncomfortable night, and was awake early yet again. I fed Percy and George, and left here for the hospital as soon as I had given my poor Mum her tea, as I had to get out of the way anyway. I felt so awful walking there, as I was so tired… it usually takes me about twenty minutes, but took more than half an hour, and when I got there, I was seen quickly again. A nurse had to cut into my manky odd finger with a very sharp knifey thing, then pull bits of my nail out with tweezers… pain was terrible, and I could not help crying out, even when my finger had been numbified. The old ogre would have called me a wimp, a big sissy, and a big baby had I cried out like that when I was a kid, but I could not help it. After the nurse had bandaged me up, I staggered off into town, and I was staggering all over the place. It was late when I finally got into town, and I was in the way of some many muttering odd humans, and some old crow seemed to be everywhere I wanted to go, even trying to push me out of the way when I went to get some milkshakes. I spent about £130 on shopping yesterday, and having to stagger back here with it all, and with my finger bandaged up was awful… I did not get back here until long after midday, and something was waiting for me to get out the way. I had to go back out for my poor Mum’s medication though… I really do not know how I got back from town, and I felt awful as I staggered off to the chemist. When I got back, I put all the shopping away, and seeing as I was so late, and something was waiting for me to get out the way, I had to get back up here without making any coffee, or getting anything to eat. I had to get out the way when I went back downstairs late yesterday afternoon as well. Something was waiting to go trundling out for chickens and chips, but I took as long as I could getting some mushroom soup ready, and then finely cutting some blue cheese to put in it. When I got back up here, I started to get one of those terrible headaches, and by the time that I went back down there last evening, I did not want anything to eat… which was just as well, as something was waiting to come thundering down the hallway. When I went down for Molly last night, something was waiting again, so I let Molly back down about an hour later, where something was waiting again, perched on the side of one of the settees. I did not know that they were so well made, I certainly did not know that they made settees out of steel and reinforced concrete. Up here I had to get again, and I felt so bad, I got into bed, and was soon asleep. I only woke up a couple of times, and was awake ten minutes early this morning, though I could have stayed there for another half an hour. I fed Percy and George, let George out with ham, gave Percy a saucer of food, and got back up here before I got in anythings way. I had to get out of the way when I went back down to make the coffee, but at least I was able to get some biscuits before I got up here, and I had another awful headache. I mentioned to Charlie that I hoped those yappity dogs did not start again, as my head was thumping. They started just before I finished tapping to her, and they have not stopped since… at least I did not choke on any biscuits. I love you Topsy, I love you so much little girl, and I miss you, I miss you so much you beautiful brave little girl. XXXXX