Good morning beautiful Topsy. I cannot remember much about yesterday little girl, I felt so depressed that I did not tap down anything. I had a bowl of soup last evening, hoping that I would get a decent sleep, but I did not, was awake during the night, and was awake early,this morning. I fed Percy and George, gave them their usual afterwards, then got back up here before I got in anyone’s way. I left Percy in the kitchen, but he will probably be shoved out. I gave poor Percy a packet of duck stuff when I went back down there to make the coffee, and I managed to get myself some biscuits before I had to get out of the way. I have been choking on them since I started, and can not even drink my coffee, as I choked on that as well. I do not think that anything else can make me feel any worse, but something will. I did want to go to the bank four towns away tomorrow, but I am not going now. When I told my poor Mum where I was going, she was told to tell me to get more blasted pork. It was going to be bad enough walking there tomorrow, but coming back loaded down with more meat, that will be grabbed and gobbled down as soon as I put it away would knock me sideways, not that those two would be bothered. The only time they would be bothered was if something happened to me, and there was no mug to bring back stuff to be gobbled down. I am dreading tomorrow, as I have to go out, and that means I will have to bring back bagloads of food… I think that if I was able to go to the doctors, I would be handed a blasted shopping list to bring back more stuff to be gobbled down. I feel so depressed little girl, I cannot go on any longer, maybe I will feel better the day after tomorrow, but I doubt it very much. I do love you Toppy, I love you so much little girl, and I do miss you, I miss you so much you beautiful brave little girl. XXXXX