Good morning beautiful TopTops. I cannot remember much about the day before yesterday little girl, apart from having a headache and eating three cheese rolls in the evening. I had another awful night, was awake very, very early again, and when I got down there to the kitchen, the usual huge amount of stuff was waiting for dopey daft me to take out there to the bins. I felt so bad, that I opened the garden doors early, and poor Percy was already waiting. After I had carted everything out, I fed Percy and George, then got back up here out of the way. I left here after I had given my poor Mum her coffee, and went to get my dopey daft head shaved, I felt so bad, it took me almost twice as long to stagger there. I was the only one there, had all that odd hair of mine shaved off, and then I staggered off into town, which took me ages to get there… I really do not know how I did not collapse somewhere. I had another great big pile of shopping to get, and I had to get some kitchen towel, which is so awkward to carry… the big odd shoppy place used to sell them in ones, but have stopped for some stupid reason. It was a good job that I did not have to get any catfood, as I would not have been able to carry it, my backypacky thing was stuffed full, I had four heavy bags, and for the forth week in a row, I had another terrible headache when I got back here. I had to get so much, I could only get myself one bottle of Vimto, two quiches, twelve of those rolls I like, four tins of mushroom soup, and some biscuits, and that has to last dopey daft me for a week. In just over a month, I have spent almost £700 on blasted shopping, on top of that I ordered a great big pile of shopping from the big shoppy place this morning, which came to almost £250, and that is being delivered at the beginning of next month. I am hoping that I will not have to bring so much back with me when I go into town two days later, but something will be wanted… as odd thingy gets through it all so quickly, the fridge and freezer will be almost empty by then. I cannot remember much else about yesterday little girl, just that I was in a great deal of pain, could not eat all of my quiche last evening, and that I got into bed after I had got of the way last night when I took Molly down to see my poor Mum. I do not know yet if I had a good night, but when I woke up this morning just a few minutes early, I felt absolutely terrible… I felt so bad that I did not want to get out of bed, but I did, and staggered off down there to the kitchen to feed Percy and George. -I almost tapped down Jenny then- I had the usual thing with George, but they both had a good feed. I let George out with a big lumpings of ham, and left poor Percy there with a saucer of ham and some salmon yogurt squirted on top. When I went down to make the drinks, I wanted a nice mug of tea, but of course, the milk was almost gone, so I had to make do with coffee again. I have not been able to have tea for almost two months now, even though I bought four great big bottles of Cravendale blue, as they were all gulluped down before I had a chance. Of course, I had to get out of odd thingies snorting way, but I managed to get a few biscuits beforehand, though I did not really enjoy them. I am sorry Toppy, I cannot think of much else to tell little you, I feel so knackered, I just want to get back into bed… but I cannot do that. We love you so much Toppy, we do love you little girl, and we do miss you, we miss you so much you beautiful brave little girl. XXXXX