Good morning beautiful Toppy. Yesterday was another horrible day little girl, we only seem to be allowed to laugh and enjoy ourselves when odd misery guts goes trundling off out, I will be so glad when it goes back to work.Yesterday it was out for less than an hour before bringing back that great big black cloud of depression and misery with it… even up here out of its snorting, barging, squawking way, I feel terribly depressed. Molly has found somewhere to hide, so I cannot even talk to her, though I am not going to look where she is hiding, as that is her own little place. She was terribly frightened the other day when that argument started, and so was Tiddles, it was like having that evil old ogre back here. It is so unfair, that blasted thing ruins things for everyone, it has done so for as long as I have known it… whenever I have been in this house, I have to stay upstairs out of its way. Of course, I had to stay up here out of the old ogres way as well, as they both told me when I was a kid that I was not wanted anywhere near them. When he finally went, I thought that I would be allowed back downstairs again, but of course, that was not going to be allowed… even though I pay all the bills, bought the furniture, and stagger back from town each week with enough food to feed a small family for a month. I am sorry for going on little girl, I used to talk to Charlie and you for hours, but right now I just feel like jumping out of that big window. There are just two reasons stopping me from doing so, and that is my poor Mum, and the great satisfaction of me being gone that odd thingy would have, as it told me that it wished that I was dead when I was a kid. I bet that it was really angry when I came out of a coma that day, and it would have not been the only one. Someone else would have been rubbing their big fat greedy hands together in glee at the thought of getting any insurance money from me, I remember them both being angry that I was back here. I feel so low that I cannot think of anything else to say little girl, except that I love and miss you so much. XXXXX