Good morning beautiful TopTops. The day before yesterday was another awful day little girl, and it is only because the ogress is here instead of giving us a break, and trundling off to work. I knew that things would not be going how I wanted when I went into town yesterday, and I was looking forward to not have to go into that odd freezery place. Of course, later on that day I was told that I had to, even though all that shopping was delivered the day before. As if there was not enough food stuffed into the freezer, I still had to go and buy some more blasted chicken… and then I had to go into the big old shoppy place and buy the stuff that they did not deliver, including the blasted sausages. It was a good job that they delivered the Vimto that I asked for, as yet again, I would not have been able to buy myself any, I was lucky that I was able to buy myself some rolls and a few packets of biscuits. Back here I had to stagger with five heavy bags, which as usual, bent and twisted my fingers. I was hoping that poor Percy would come to greet me, as I had to put him out yesterday morning before I left, but I did not see him for the rest of the day. I am really getting fed up with having to go out and bring back stuff for the ogress, she just sits there expecting to be waited on, just because she goes trundling off to work for six hours a week. I have never known her to have to go without, my poor Mum and dopey me had to go without when I was a kid, and that was so that the old ogre and the ogress could have what he called seconds. We would have to go,without food, so those two could stuff their big fat greedy faces even more. She even got my poor Mum to ask me to buy blasted batteries yesterday, as she knew I would not get them for her, she is too lazy to even go and get them herself. Any day now little girl, and I am finally going to snap, I know I am, but I have to try not to in case I upset my poor Mum. The ogress used to wind me up even more when I was a kid, and when I finally blew, she would start wailing, knowing full well that the old ogre would give me a good beating… she would sit there grinning like a deranged grinch. I have babbling on again little girl, sorry… when I got in here, I had to put everything away quickly, as I was in her way. I came up here for Molly first though, but had to get back up here as soon as I had finished putting the shopping away. I also had to get out of her way when I went back downstairs just before midday to make some tea, as she was waiting to go trundling off somewhere, somewhere where she could have gotten those blasted batteries herself. I did not even have enough time to get myself any biscuits. I was feeling a bit low, but cheered up as I was playing with Molly, though when I went back downstairs yesterday afternoon, I felt very depressed when I got down there. I had wanted some blue cheese with a few crisps, but between leaving here, and getting down there, I felt so bad that I could not be bothered. I could not be bothered to get the mushroom soup ready that I wanted last evening either, which was just as well, as I had to get back up here out of the way. I had yet another awful night little girl, I was up very, very early yesterday morning, and woke up this morning around the same time, though I did go back to sleep for another hour. I was so pleased to see poor Percy when I opened the garden doors, I was pleased to see George as well, who seems to be trusting me more… I do not think that she has ever had a fuss made of her. I gave them both a good feed, then gave them loads of ham. George went out after she had finished, and Percy got onto the laundry bag, so I left him there until I went back down to make some coffee. Of course, I had to get out of the ogresses way yet again, but I was looking forward to her going out today… but she is not going. Maybe, just maybe I will feel a lot better tomorrow, but I doubt it very much. We do love you Topsy, we love you so much little girl, and we do miss you, we miss you so much you beautiful brave little girl. XXXXX